Hi, guys it's my first time here.. I love this girl, we've been dating for quite some time now, and recently she requested that we take a break from each other for a month. It's coming around into the second week, and I'm slowly dying over here... We still live together and everything but she says she wants to see other people for the month. That just shattered my world and last night she came home at about 5:30 in the morning sometime. I saw her this morning to check up on her but she had a hickey on her neck, and that just killed me, she wanted me to try and win her back during this break but how can I when she's meeting this guy and comes home with a hickey? this is too hard for me to get through, in the beginning she was the suicidal one and I was the reason for her finding hope in her life, and now it's turned around on me.. I want to just die without her... I know for a fact that no one else can fill that place in my heart that she has, and now that she's seeing someone else which I must say is record time.. I'm just torn apart, I'm not myself anymore, I don't eat or even feel hunger anymore. I'm just and empty shell.. I know it's a lot to feel this way for one woman, but she's the one that has the fate of my life in her hands at this point in time. Meeting other people isn't going to help, I've tried it over the weekend, and I just didn't even care for them, no matter how beautiful they are, they aren't her. I love this girl with everything I've got, I've sacrificed everything for her, family and friends. My mother says I should just go cool and just forget about it but it just wont work. I don't know what to do anymore which is why I am here. 3/20/2013 is the ending date to this break, it will either have a happy ending, or it will be a tragic ending for my life, I'm not going to be missed. My family thinks I'm a disgrace, and my friends probably hate me also, I will definitely end up dying if I'm not with her. Until then I'm going to give it my all in winning her back.. Wish me luck guys and please if there I would like a little comforting on this if possible. My decisions are set 100% no looking back now, I love her with all that I am, and am not going to give up on her, I just needed some help or something. I don't know.. I'm just empty without her. I'm not stupid either, you'd do the same if you were me. Everyone's told me I'm going too crazy over a girl, but she's the one I've already asked to marry, and we've had our hard times but this is just crazy, I feel like I'm a danger to myself and society at times. I'm not going to do anything rash like hurt another innocent person but until the month is up I'm just going to have to give it my all, literally even my life. I know it isn't going to get her back if I'm dead but hey! at least I won't feel the pain of this emptiness any longer if I'm gone..