I'm in one of those moments in my life when it's all "good", my depression is huge and some not so good thoughts are running through my head. So I try to counter balance them with some positive stuff; problem is there's nothing positive about my life. - I have social anxiety (which is the main cause these next items) - I have no friends - I never had a girlfriend (btw, I'm 22) - I don't have a job - I'm not in a good shape - I don't have too many interests The list speaks for itself. How in the world will I ever get out of this state of mind and get better since I have nothing to begin with? The only thing that still keeps me going is fear of death (not god, not religion, but just inexistance) and the hope that maybe someday I'll be able to experience a small part of this life. Of course, that's like hoping to win the lottery. I really wish I could find some help because I don't feel I can do it by myself; it's just too much.