I can't. I've been trying for three years. I've opened up about it all. My sister touching me. My crush on my minor cousin. I just don't have enough money for therapy, outpatient treatment, etc. I've tried working, but quit because all I could think about was cutting myself with the company box cutter everyone got. Now, I can't even go to school because they put me on financial aid suspension. I am too depressed to find pleasure in anything, and don't know what to even major in because of it. I'm thinking about me, a car, and carbon monoxide. Tonight.