I'm not really sure why I'm writing this because compared to some peoples problems in the world mine seem very small but I don't know what else to do. I've tried to kill myself 5 times, first when I was 14. That was 3 years ago and I still can't see a way out. Since then nothing has got any better, infact things have just got worse. I have no friends because I stopped going to school last year because I couldn't bear it anymore and after a while 'my friends' stopped calling and I am finishing my school qualifications at home. In 2011 I'm supposed to be going to University but I haven't stepped out of the house in 6 Months other than to put the trash out so I have no idea how I'm supposed to cope at Uni. I'm so scared of the world and people seeing me and I don't know how I'm ever meant to get passed that. My life just seems to be going nowhere and all I can do is think about finishing it. I have this dream where I fly to San Francisco and jump off the Golden Gate Bridge and to be honest If I only had the guts to go outside my house I would. My mum wants me to go on Anti Depressants but I'm too scared even to go to the doctors. I just don't see the point in life, all it is, is misery after misery.