Hello, I am 46 and last year I took a job with the USDA Forest Service of which I am to serve a 1-year probation prior to becoming a permanent employee. During the past 11 months I've endured a hostile work environment and when I'd question the system or seek help, the abuse ascalated. I have been subjected to verbal and physical violence and when I reported something illegal, an EEO complaint was filed against me. I filed my own EEO complaint and was terminated on April 23rd. I've called the suicide hotline dozens of times over the past 4 months due to the hostile work environment. Seems every step I took to protect myself created a negative response. Several years ago I was in an abusive marriage and these above-referenced events triggered those fears. Gosh, who will hire someone that's been fired from the Federal government? I'm moving in with my mother and feel so ashamed. I think I'd be better off working for myself; yet, in the economy I don't know what else to do. Most of the work from home ideas have been exhausted or a scam. I'm so afraid. I have no support network. My family is not supportive. There has been abuse there, too. The only reason I don't kill myself is b/c of my pets and horse. They are my only reason for living. I will need to file for unemployment and don't know if I'll receive any funds. They will ask why I was terminated and I want to say: "While working as a probationary employee I was verbally and physically assaulted (include the dates) and after I filed an EEO complaint in connection with a hostile work enviornment I was terminated." I don't know what else to say and would appreciate any suggestions. I'm shaking all over and will move to my mother's home on Sunday/Monday. My family is not very supportive. I will contact the suicide support group in that area for help. I don't want to be alone and I'm scared.