I hate to moan, but, and I'm sure a lot of people on here feel the same, i just want to find out if other people feel the same way I do. I really would like to end my life, I've felt this way for years on and off. There is nothing massively wrong and I feel selfish for having these thoughts when I see other people suffer and struggle with their difficult lives when I have have a fairly easy life and I don't want it. I just feel that life is not for me, like when you start a new hobby and you quit because it's not your thing, that's how I feel about my life. I just find the whole thing incredibly un-enjoyable. There's nothing I enjoy doing, I don't want to go out, i don't want to see people, even my family, I don't bother staying in contact with anyone because I can't face/don't want to talk to anyone. I stay up for hours at night staring at the ceiling, even though I am exhausted, rarely crying, just feeling numb and just wanting out. I have friends, family, a girlfriend, I'm even seeing a therapist but I can't talk to any of them. I try to talk to my girlfriend and while she's sympathetic she doesn't really get it. Even the therapist I'm seeing (which I felt was the last resort) is not helpful, I swear my cat understands my better than her! Yes, I probably should stop seeing her as I am paying for it but I keep hoping it'll get better. I always thought of that as a last resort and now that it hasn't worked I just feel like giving up, I had pinned all my hopes on it, I wanted to like living and I wanted the therapist to change my personality so that I could just enjoy my life or at least make it bearable (yes, i realise I was probably expecting a bit too much!).