To make a long story short, my ex-husband cheated on me every chance he got and when I started to SI he would say I was crazy that he was doing nothing wrong. It was all in my head. Now I am remarried and am in love with someone who is not my husband. It makes me sick to my stomach to admit this as I don't believe in cheating. But this guy has been on my mind for a long time and he feels the same way about me. I don't know what to do. I love my husband but am not IN love with him. There is no passion left. I was molested by my Uncle-in-law from the age of 9 till I was 16. And turns out my ex was put in prison for molesting his half-sister who was 14 at the time. He was 33. From what I have learned since, it had been going on for years and she got mad at him for something and turned him in. I have been SI'ing as long as I can remember and have been having a hard night. I have used a box-cutter on myself and burned myself and it still isn't enough. I don't know what to do. Can anyone give me some encouragement?