Cannot stand people ignoring me all the time, talking down to me, treating me like crap, why do I deserve this???? What the hell did I do, I do not know. I am sorry for being me. I cannot continue like this. I have not said this in a long long time but right now I hate myself. I just don't belong, I don't belong anywhere. I'm afraid of the world. It's cruel, vile, nasty. What did I do to deserve this? Don't fit in anywhere, people don't want to be around me. I fucking hate myself!!! I don't know how to behave normally anymore, my head is messing up again and I really don't want to even leave my room.