It is 2 o'clock in the morning.
I cant sleep.
Or stop crying.
Meds have been changed a few weeks ago and are helping to a certain extent.
However, I have crashed and burned today.
It is really hard to not take everything and try to end it again.
I know how you feel. I've been the same for the last few days.
Doing stuff like watching tv "American Dad and Family Guy, really helped". Listening to music and looking forward to going away this weekend with a good friend, is helping cheer me up a bit.
Taking a trip to the sea, has a calming effect on my mind, maybe it might help you.
Keep talking here though. So many caring, warm people in these forums, who want to listen and help.
The Samaritans are open 24 hours a day. Here's the link. http://www.samaritans.org/
Thank you all for your replies.
I am due to see my family doctor in a few hours and I will tell him.
I tried making a pro's and con's list a few times, but they always end up being very heavy in the cons list - the pro-life side is tiny,
Music- mostly makes me cry and I cant even play the piano while I am like this. The tears just intensify with the melodies and harmonies.
Thanks again for your support. I will try to hang on,