I've made recent improvements in my life, but ironically it's only made it more clear to me how terrible the state of my mental health is.
I just feel... nothing. Nothing brings joy anymore. Nothing really bothers me too much. I've gradually shut off from my few irl and internet friends. After a while people stopped asking about me. I'm not resentful towards them. The way I'm feeling hasn't been brought on by anyone or anything in specific. It's just an emptiness that's been with me for a long time.
Sorry, I'm bad at expressing my feelings like this. I can't stop thinking about how okay I'd be with ending it soon, and how little motivation I have to go forward. My world is so lonely and small and gray.
I just feel... nothing. Nothing brings joy anymore. Nothing really bothers me too much. I've gradually shut off from my few irl and internet friends. After a while people stopped asking about me. I'm not resentful towards them. The way I'm feeling hasn't been brought on by anyone or anything in specific. It's just an emptiness that's been with me for a long time.
Sorry, I'm bad at expressing my feelings like this. I can't stop thinking about how okay I'd be with ending it soon, and how little motivation I have to go forward. My world is so lonely and small and gray.