It's going through my head all the time. I can't sleep as of it. Self harm has taken over and that isn't even helping that much. Something big is brewing. I am so tired I can't function. Anyone know of anything that can get over the counter that will make me sleep. Not to OD on just to sleep. Any good anti-histamines out there that work as a sedative. I am going to the GP tomorrow. I had the x-ray on my arm and shows the needle still there. I have said not self harm and have denied all knowledge of it. I have been told I will probably have to have an operation to get it out. The thing is this doesn't bother me. I think cos I plan on eating and drinking before it in the hope I have some alergic reaction to the aneasthetic. No one would ever know that it was on purpose then either. My other plans are for this Friday. I have the house to myself and will be able to self harm as much as I want. I then plan on going somewhere to finish it off so no one I know would have to find me. I can't go on like this. The counsellor knows I am having thoughts on serious self harm but not the extent of how I am planning it. I haven't said mainly as I am stubborn and can't see the point discussing it with a counsellor when I have already made up my mind. Also there is the confidentiality thing that she would have to break if she thought I was at risk of serious harm. So can't see the point in saying anything there then. I need sleep!