Can't stop thinking about it

[Ruby]

I can't stop thinking about death. Every waking minute is spent visualizing my own suicide. I'm so desperate. I can't sleep at night, I can't concentrate on anything else. I feel like my organs are shutting down. Can depression be so bad? I feel numb with sadness and despair. I'm struggling to get through the day. I'm on 40mg of citalopram and 800mg of seroquel. I'm desperate for something to work. What should I do?

 

[White Dove]

I can't stop thinking about death. Every waking minute is spent visualizing my own suicide. I'm so desperate. I can't sleep at night, I can't concentrate on anything else. I feel like my organs are shutting down. Can depression be so bad? I feel numb with sadness and despair. I'm struggling to get through the day. I'm on 40mg of citalopram and 800mg of seroquel. I'm desperate for something to work. What should I do?

i know how you feel cause i think about death more and more each and every day.

I have stage 4 cancer ( Hepatocellular Carcinoma ) and a liver that is over half gone eat up with it and yes i think about it every day.

I think the depression is just as bad but i am sure that maybe speaking with your doctor and letting him or her know that it is making you feel this way then maybe they can give you more meds or other meds that will help..

just my two cents...