Can't stop thinking about it

[MaNg0s]

Lately I have been a mess. I hardly sleep at all, I am soo emotional like a sad scene from a movie where a loved one is lost can bring me to tears like a pregnant chick I just can't control my emotions. I just feel soo low I really can't remember what it was like to be happy yes I can remember times when I was happy but not the feeling of it.

I told my parents how I was feeling and my mum just kept telling me to take some herbal pills and to do breathing exercises. I know my life won't change and I know I will never get out of this place so I just want to end it now. The thought of it is making me happy and it gives me such a feeling of relief its unbelievable and refreshing. The only thing stopping me now is just finding the right method. I have tried a few things before such as overdosing, cutting and I would like to try hanging again but if it fails there is always a chance of brain damage or a broken neck and if I did survive from it and got any of those I would just be stuck here feeling worse.

It has gotten to a point where I care about nothing anymore. The only things I do care about is my ex and whether or not I should leave a note for anyone or not. This is not some cry for help or just to have someone tell me not to do it I just want to end my life this pain never goes away and I cannot enjoy the things I used to do any more.

 

[Anime-Zodiac]

Even though life is going poorly for you, i'm sure things in the future will get better, isn't it worth living life to get to that happiness and to make life alot better for you.

 

[Gunner12]

If you really have to get out, try going to the country side for a bit and relax. Things might feel better for a bit.

You might not think you care about much right now, but many people still care a lot about you.