Started off with scratching with a knife Scratches started to get worse Tried to stop Did stop Got triggered Remember what someone said to me Did that Now can't stop This is the longest i've gone without since starting 5 days Wanna so badly right Feel like my heart has been ripped out The person i started stopping for well ....... lets not go there Wanna feel that pain Wanna punish myself for ruining it For doing everything wrong I deserve the marks Deserve the pain Deserve everything i've got comming to me Fucked up this like i did with my mate Going the same way And im NOT going thru that again I refuse it I'm not strong And i will slip up Why not make it right now! Why not get out what i need to do it right now! I cant even talk to the person who i use to talk about this shit before with! Urgh whatever I give up 5 days thats good enough Guess ill be recounting pretty soon Whats the point anymore!? I'm fucked up why not have an arm to match!