I've started back up again.. This horrible habit. At the same time, I find it to be such an extreme comfort... I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to talk about it with family and friends. Family have bad reactions.. Friends don't help.. My own boyfriend is unhelpful.. And sometimes the cause. I'm loosing control and I am afraid of going too far one time, maybe even tonight... I don't know what to do.. I just need someone to talk to. Someone to listen... No one seems to listen to me anymore.