well maybe it's not that i can't stop, but i don't want to. i started cutting like 6 or 7 years ago and i suppose i have gone through phases during those years and have had significant chunks of time where i didn't do it. but right now i just can't seem to get enough. i've always had a preferred method, but today i tried something different and i think it's going to be very dangerous for me. i know it's bad. i know i shouldn't do it. i know there are alternatives that i should try. ...but i don't want to... am i ever going to grow out of this? am i ever going to stop wrecking my body every way i possibly can? am i ever going to want to stop?