I use to be able to go months without cutting. Now i've cut 3 days in a row. Yesterday, the night before and just now. I hate that i'm getting back into this but its the only way i can cope with whats going on around me. I will cut tomorrow and i will cut christmas day and i will cut boxing day. I can't go into reasons why but i have to because those days i will truely know what i've lost. All the plans i had .... gone. I carry a blade on me all the time now. Somewhere no one will find it.