I'm afraid to die, but even more scared to live this life. Ive been to several doctors, tried every medicine, NOTHING WORKS. I have social anxiety, generalized anxiety, panic disorder, emetophobia, agoraphobia, and haven't eaten a real meal in about 2 months. I'm so tired of being trapped in bed, not enough energy to do anything. I have constant, severe anxiety all day long. I take lorazepam but it doesn't do enough to even notice. I only have 1 way out, and I think it's time to end it all. The worst part is my absolute greatest fear is getting sick, and now I feel sick all the time. If I try to leave home, I start having a major panic attack before getting out of the driveway. I have a dr appointment this Friday, but I don't know how I can leave to go there...it's like a 45 minute drive. Not sure whether to try one last time (even though I really don't know how I can do it) or end this life that has caused soo much pain.........decisions, decisions, decisions.