I have tried getting proffesional help nd they just make me feel worse. For 16yrs i have tried fighting all my feelings and fears but i no longer have the fight left in me. I know a lot of ppl care about me and will miss me but i really can't go on like this anymore no matter what i have tried i always end up back in this dark place wanting peace so the time has come to find that peace. Sorry to all those who have tried to help lately i guess i just don't want it enough.