Every day just gets harder. I can't help but harm myself. Like it's punishment for my problems. I always think about ending it but I can't leave my son. He's all I have. It's so hard to hide my pain from him. I want him to know that Daddy is okay but it's so hard to pretend. I try holding everything back but it always breaks through and it won't stop. I have no one to talk to about anything. That's what makes this worse. I talk to myself and I tell myself to keep harming me.