I had a suicide plan a few weeks ago, but I didn't follow through. I regret I didn't complete it because I find the very few people (both online and offline) know I am suicidal or had a plan don't seem to want to talk to me any more. I can't blame them as I know they are doing this for their own safety/sanity. I feel more alone than ever. When I am in one of those very rare forums, I feel I have to be self-censored and try to talk things lightly so that I will not trigger people or push them away. I certainly know people just like to be around with happy people. I feel so hopeless. Even though I am not so depressed at this moment, I don't see anything I can live for. I already thought the same well before the last plan. I think it more so now. I am sorry to say I am contemplating it again. BUT, for those who are a lot younger than me, you still have a lot of potential to get a better life. There are so much you have not seen or experienced. Hang in there.