I need to talk to a professional, but the problem is if I do they will hospitalize me immediately. The problem with Florida is that even if I'm not planning on doing anything and just want to explain how these thoughts relax me and make me feel better they will baker act me. If they baker act me, I will be sent to a hospital.. These hospitals are.. just awful. I cannot go back to one. I will absolutely lose it if I went to one. They make you so miserable that you just fake your way to get out as soon as possible. What do I do?