Can't wait to die

I'm planning on killing myself in a few months. The only reason I'm waiting a few months is because right now I feel too ugly to go out until I've lost weight. But once I've lost the rest of the weight I have to lose I think I'm going to do it. So far I have already lost quite a bit of weight and I thought I'd start to feel better but I just feel the same. <Mod Edit:IrishDoll,Inappropriate>That's how I've always planned to do it anyways. I have terrible stretchmarks and no man would ever want to sleep with me. I'm never going to be able to cope in social situations because I haven't been out of my house for a year. I'm 17 and I've not got any friends anymore. I just dream of death all the time.