I think I've been doing well with my antidepressants and my sleeping pills overall, but today it hit me, what day is tomorrow and had even prepared something for her and now. I don't know, I start feeling it, tomorrow is going to be such a shitty day for me and that's an understatement. I can feel it already, it brings me down already. Ugh. Why do I have to miss her so much? Why can't I just stop remembering? I don't want to hurt this bad and I can't turn my head without seeing something that reminds me of us, of her, of what we had. I was given paradise when I received her, she was my angel. And now I'm in hell and tomorrow is going to be a million times worse. I have my doubts, about if I will be able to survive tomorrow. I'm gathering all my strength, I just hope is enough.