Feeling so? ...too many things. So much bad has happened and now even more has been thrown in. Can't bother posting about it cuz never gets understood. Hopefully someone reading this understands that "panicky, nervous, cold, clammy, need to crawl out of my own skin and body, just want to be dead rather than feel like this, all alone" feeling. Everyone is getting better, moving on and I can't. I don't know who anybody is anymore, especially me! It's so lonely and the thoughts and ideas are so intense. I feel like all I do is fail while everyone else expects me to do better because they can, do or have. I'm so confused and scared!