i want to 'let it all out' but can't. i'm scared. Scared it won't make a difference. Scared no one would care anyway, why would they? i'm so fucking exhausted no good to anyone how do i expect anyone to give a shit when i have nowt to give back. i want real help but seems that's impossible, too now. No point writing more no point trying. Every time i start a sentence with 'I', just hate myself more and more.