I am so angry right now and feel so stupid. I have been telling Angel how well hes been doing to find out that hes been spending money to pay things off on ebay. I got so mad and now I feel like its all my fault. Everytime I get money I have been helping pay off hi credit cards and now hes put us hundreds overdrawn because hes selfish. I have been living to help him and now I cant even do that so whats the point. He doesnt care if he did he wouldnt be so dumb and careless. theres no point. Now hell come home and cut and tell me its becuase I was upset with him. I feel as if I am in an emotional blackmail relationship. I cant do it anymore. Just crying and cutting and hitting myself.