So, I am planning on driving home in two days. It's a long trip, about 750km (11-12 hours). I have been thinking a lot about just crashing my car on the way home. At least that way it might not look like a suicide to my family. It's going to be a huge trigger for me to drive all that way. There isn't anyone I can take with me either and even if there was I don't know if I would because I don't want to give that up. Anyway, I don't know.