Note : Sorry im so angry and the swearing in this post. Let me see if i can make this clear, just so everyone finally gets it. I REALLY dont give a FUCK about this job. I would leave 9AM tomorrow morning if I had even the slightest chance of getting away with it. The reasons I keep turning up are simple. 1) I need the money 2) Id never hear the fucking end of it 3) The welfare system shits me I hate trying to be someone im not. You made up your mind about me on the first day, and i can already tell I will never truly get along with any of you, and the fucked up part is, I will have to work with all of you. Its ironic i get along with management better than you guys, but ya I aint part of your little fucking crowd, and I never will be. Im a leper, a misfit, a creep, an embarrassment, an outcast, the shit on your shoes. The bottom line is this - the clock is already ticking, and its not even 2 weeks. What a fucking failure, 12 months on and im back to where I started, facing the same decision i faced then. Im going around in circles. How the fuck did I arrive at this point. What a miserable, pathetic, sorry excuse for a person I am :sad: Theres nobody to save me, nobody to be with, nobody can tell me it will be ok and have me believe it. Sick of faking happy when all i feel is unhappy. Sick of pretending im human when all I am is a mistake Sick of wanting someone to love Sick of wanting friends i can see and touch Sick of wanting Can someone please put a bullet in my head :sad: Maybe thats what i should do with the money im earning, save it to buy the means to end it. Im fucking sick of this.