I am 28 years old, I live in London, England and I've been suffering from severe depression for around 8 or 9 years now and haven't been able to work because of it which has made me even more depressed. I am a naturally hard working person and hate sitting around doing nothing, but sitting around doing nothing has sort of become a way of life for me. My situation is that I have just over a grand (£1000) in life savings and I am on disability allowance currently. I have an A level in fine art and BTEC qualifications in maths, art & design and English from college. I strictly never touch alcohol, cigarettes or drugs these days, although I did drugs a little about 8 years ago. My working background is pathetic, I was a hotel porter for about 10 months and I was a floor layer for about 3 months, both before 2001. My CV (resume) is extremely empty at the moment. I don't have responsibilities such as a family to support or many bills, so I can take time out to study for a possible career. My literacy skills are top notch and I'm confident that I could gain top qualifications in English. I am at a point now where I am desperate to get back into work and try to rebuild my failure of a life. Thing is, I don't want a job, I want a career. I am willing to study hard if that's what it takes and gain qualifications. I just want to be respected, but I've never known what I wanted to do in life before and I have suffered terribly with social anxiety in the past and still do to a degree. I've noticed that I've been watching Airline documentaries almost religiously recently and it's suddenly struck me that I would love to become an Airline pilot. Question is, is it unrealistic for someone in my situation to gain a career now? How could a potential employer take on somebody that has been sitting on his ass for 8 years doing nothing? Would studying for a career now be pointless for that reason? Money is an obvious problem too, is there any way I can get around college fees? If I don't do something to change my current situation, suicide will be inevitable. And I have no family or friends to pose this question to. So please, can anyone that has experience in this subject advise me?