I try to be an up-beat person and not sweat the small stuff. Ignore the bad and just move on, but lately my life is like a black pit. Their is nothing to keep me going. I feel like when I need people the most they are going away or have nothing but bad things to say. I am also guilty for pushing alot of people away too, but they weren't the greatest people to keep as company in the first place. Everything that can go wrong lately has. I make one mistake and then its like a trail of mistakes follow after that one. On top of that People judge me so harshly for the one mistake I have made and just forget about the person I have been all thease years, I don't get why people have to be so judgmental. I just really don't know how much longer I can go on or how much more I can take. I've told people I wouldnt try to take my life again, but I wasnt being honest to them or myself. I'm tired of feeling like I have an anvil sitting on my chest and I just cant breathe. I wish I didn't feel this way. I know how many people I will hurt when I leave this place, but the pain to stay here is just too much.