I just want to put this out there..hopefully it can help someone. I have been suffering with suicidal thoughts since i was around 10-11..i'm now 36. I have been on all different antidepressants and nothing really helps. Just feel like a zombie. I recently found out that having metal tooth fillings in the teeth causes people to have sucidal thoughts because of mercury poisoning. The main symptom of mercury poisoning is uncontrollable suicidal thoughts. Since mercury travels through the body and leeches inside the brain. This effects the area of your brain that controls your personality, speech pattern, breathing pattern and thoughts. Millions of americans who are depressed actually have mercury poisoning. It will come out eventually to the public..in fact it is NOW one of the biggest class action law suits in canada. It is thought that mercury poisoning is the actual cause of brain diseases such as alzeimers, parkinsons, epilepsy and more. This is hidden from the public b/c big pharma pays the FDA 400 billion dollars a year to keep the info. hidden. I found this out through nice people on other forums who wanted to share their experience and help other people. I just wanted to inform you about it as well. If you have any metal fillings in your teeth..they are made up of 50% mercury and You have in fact some sort of mercury floating around in your body. The fDA denies the dangers only because the millions or billions of lawsuits that would follow b/c of all the damage it has caused. Mercury is also thought to be the cause of autism. So mercury causes personality problems such as extreme shyness, panic attacks, anger, suicide thoughts, feeling apart from the world and autistic like behaviors. I recently took out all my metal fillings 5 weeks ago and I am following a detox protocol. I had hair ab analysis and it showed that i had high mercury in my hair which comes from the body. The world health organization says that NO amount of mercury is safe in the body. It's a huge mistake of our century. I NOW know that people with psychological problems may have dental tooth fillings. these metal fillings cause so many problems physically to the body as well..as emotionally. If you have these fillings i urge you to start researching information online. There are so many testimonials form people who took out their fillings and were cured of depression, Multiple sclerosis, parkinsons, alzeimers and more. Anyway, It's been 5 weeks since i had surgery and removed my metal fillings. They warned me that i would go through some type of withdrawal and that i may hit rockbottom before i get better. I am hitting rock bottom..that is why i am here. Also, i wish i knew about this when i was in my early 20s. I may have been all better by now and saved me years of heartache. I hope this may be a seed to help someone one day. Just don't get mad at me for posting this info. I'm just trying to help. Although i know..no good deed goes unpunished. As for myself i am struggling right now. It will take a year to detox the metal from my body. I'm experiencing suicidal thoughts. i don't even feel like going through the process. I feel like i lost a large amount of my life to this problem..and i feel that antidepressants just turned me into a mummy and life just passed me by. I don't have anyone in my life...the only thing that keeps me here is the unconditional love of my dog. The only creature to ever trully love me. Every guy i ever loved and cared about has broken my heart to pieces. I have lived too much agony to feel as though i can never feel joy again. The pain just adds up and i can't lead a normal life. I really feel like i want to buy a gun and shoot myself. I once tried to Over-dose but i made the mistake of telling my mom..and she sent the ambulance..and i ended up in the hospital. They say many people who attempt finally succeed. I have many thoughts of buying this gun. I just think about my dog and she would be devastated and would never be ok without me. I've never experienced such attachment from a dog before or human. I hoped that i would lead a nice life, fall in love..get married. But, none of that happened for me. I just experienced heart breaks..that killed me over and over again. I think there's a limit to how much pain a person can go through. I don't know how to change things around..and don't know if i have the ability to be normal after all this pain and agony i have been through. I really wish i could just fall asleep and never wake up. It's the only time i feel at peace.