This isn't much of a rant, but a ramble. People are being so nice to me all of a sudden. I was getting so sick of people in general the more i got depressed and people generally ignore me. I was fine with that, I've always been sort of invisible-I dont like attention and I certainly don'e like when people look at me. Anyone else like that? If people look at me I feel like they are finding all my faults and flaws and are reading me. Anyway, now, lately, people have been extra nice, my friends, coworkers and even some strangers dont seem to be as oblivious to me as they used to be. I was at the video store one day, in the middle of my deepest depression and one man commented how he 'never seen any girl look as sad' as me. I looked at him for a second and tried to smile and walked away. Even the people that are closest to me who I was having problems with for awhile have basically sat back and now are just being nice. I don't know. I'm not imagining it. It's not a complaint. Just curious. I'm having a not-so-bad day today. Ever since I sort of turned things around a little bit I have bad days and good days. Yesterday was a *really* bad day and today-sort of light. I'm looking forward to a really decent weekend. I hope it turns out that way. Im scared of looking forward to it because if it doesnt turn out right it will make me down. I just want it to be decent. I hope everyone is doing ok.