I hope that I: 1. Reach out to someone else with my post 2. I need to get it off my chest I am about to graduate college in may. I have a lot going for me. I had a good girlfriend but we were unhappy together. I know I was a lot of the time and we fought way too much. But she broke up with me on friday after thanksgiving because I got in an argument with her and told her I was going to commit suicide since she broke up with me. I was really drunk and swallowed like 20 Tylenol. I woke up the next day with a huge hang over and was ok. I was still distraught and feeling depressed. On Saturday I didnt do anything but try to get back with her. I was driving myself crazy. I couldnt take the fact that we were going to break up but it was for the best. She was serious about breaking up. My sister has some serious mental issues, and she had a presecription for klonopin. I swallowed just about a whole bottle and drove 5 hours back to school, crying because she broke up with me. I was freaking out and it made me black out. I dont remember anything from Sunday night until Monday morning. I puked like 5 times and tried so hard to talk to her and talked to all of her friends. I freaked out. I was really trying to commit suicide with the klonopin because I thought it would kill me. Anyway since I wouldnt leave her alone she took out a restraining order, she overracted way overreacted because my friends witnessed it and so did my mom and they all told me that I did nothing that threatened her, just threatened my life to her and her best friend. I woke up on Tuesday morning to sherrifs arresting me and taking me away to jail. I sat in jail for 12 hours and am facing harrasment / stalking charges but its a really weak case that I will probably be fine. I just have to leave her alone. But more importantly klonopin is messed up. No one knows I took it. I realized while in jail that I have so much going for me and I didnt really want to be with her. It just now sucks that I have these charges that I have to take care of. Life is great. Family is always going to be there for you. Friends will always be there for you. Thats all you need. My girlfriend became not my friend and thats why we are not together. Suicide is not the answer, ever. I am so much stronger now and have really changed for the better, like a ton. This was the most negative positive experience for me and I am so happy that I am alive and no one knows about the klonopin. I thank god now that I am still able to sit her and write this. Things in life sometimes dont make sense at the time but later you realize why it happened.