things are really different. ever since my sis. passed im just no longer friends with any of my friends. when i hang out with em, i see how far we've all come. we have all changed, but it feels like im the only one that has changed in a regressive way. when i was younger, there was a period were i thought my friends weren't really any friends to me and it made me sad, but now it doesn't faze me. in many ways i know i have turned myself to this loner/introvert. but sometimes i do wish talking to someone.