Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by Youlleatamuffinandlikeit, Oct 18, 2012.

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  1. Youlleatamuffinandlikeit

    Youlleatamuffinandlikeit Well-Known Member


    Death is in my nose
    Are there any, can escape the pose?
    Love is a background noise
    A jeering call to ugly boys
    Northern flower is a snuffed out rose
    A door slamming
    Resolutely closed
    I linger here in fabricated stench
    Atop whispers of pages, no longer in sense
    Incense will be my final sleep
    Appropriate punishment
    For heart nobody cared to keep
    And as I drown in smoky rage
    Will it waken you from selfish haze?
    To see tortured mind set ablaze
    The price of neglect and hatred weighs
    Heavily in the world of gays

    If love is but illusory term
    Built solely on turgid animal worm
    This heart will never be a must
    As long as truth splurges in lust
    I find this lack of humanity
    In everyone, including me
    Judgement hour; a long time emerging
    My heart is drowning, never surging
    The blackness is not confined to the night
    True question is: will I survive the sight?
    Mankind’s true face is corruption laced
    I feel the pull of outer space
    It’s been so long since I dared to race
    Is this fear?
    Or the truth of those we hold dear?

    ~ Muffin
  2. Acy

    Acy Mama Bear - TLC, Common Sense Staff Member Safety & Support

    :eek:hmy: :hug: That is so dark and sad! I like it though - you use great diction, rhyme, rhythm. I hope today is not one of those darker days for you.
  3. Youlleatamuffinandlikeit

    Youlleatamuffinandlikeit Well-Known Member

    Actually today I am having something of a total turn-around. I think I might just be able to break the spell of mental illness once and for all. But I have had to face my darkest darkness. The deepest part of me. This poem is about the night I almost did...exit...
  4. Samara

    Samara Account Closed

    Please, consider or allow yourself the opportunity to have a very strong support group/personnel when trying to attack your deep issues... because the deeper inside you dig, the more it will hurt... because you will be picking at things that already hurt and were buried to begin with. But the point this time of shining light on the areas, is so that they will come to a place where the hurt is not the same, and where the hurt is understood, and where the hurt doesn't get to decide or control you.

    But please, if you can, dig when you are certain that you also have solid support systems in place in your life, that way when things get intense (as they will, when you dig), you can pull back out again.... that way you are not stuck, and reliving all the things you don't want to live as again.

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