I am in that verge again. I am very disappointed with my useless pathetic life. I am a burden to everybody. Maybe I just have to hang myself up & end this painful life. O death ,why don't you come now & get me. How much more should I suffer? I need to find a gun , I do not want to waste my life like this ,that pedophiliac judge must come with me.Someone have to come with me. Not waste this life just like that , they destroy my life ,well the battle is not done yet.I feel so down, my son did not come today. I felt like a failure.