Everyone has a choice to make in life. To continue going on with their life, trying to fix whatever problem there is. Or to end it. When I look around at friends and family I see happyness and joy. Its when I look at myself and see nothing. I feel like my friends and arent that close. My son is with his mom, who is marrying some other guy. All i have is my own mother. I have no one to miss me when Im gone. I cant meet anyone so I completely shut everyone out. I decided to shut down my life. No matter what you guys say I know how it is right now. When you have nothing in your life, why do you keep going on? The answer i you dont. Its not like im a George Bailey or something. Thats life, you live it then you die. Mine wasnt even a fun ride. Least its over now.