I never understood the pleasure one gets to auto erotic asphyxiate one self, until recently. I won't explain how i do it obviously, but i found a way to do so without blocking my airway (the trachea). At first it was to experiment, but then i found out the rush it can gives. The feeling of faintness, the tingles in my arms and the knees buckling. As crazy as it might sound, it gave me a feeling i've never felt before. Now everytime i feel shitty as hell, i just "choke" myself for 1 second. That's enough to give me that rush and feeling of being alive. I guess now i understand why some people self harm or cut. I don't encourage anyone to do it obviously. This is just to point out how fucked up my life is. I'm just afraid one day i might just overdo it and end up whacking myself. Am i the only one who does this?