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Christmas cowards?

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bumper

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I had hoped Christmas would be more depressing than this. I had hoped the loneliness on Christmas would be enough to finally give me the courage to end my life. But so far that hasn’t happened.

Anybody else chickening out on Christmas Day?

I guess the day isn’t over yet.
 

yada

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My day's actually turned out to be worse than I felt it would've been. I somehow felt I'd be able to deal with it easier. Everyone else is with their families, but I'm alone. I just finished writing my thoughts down, but it has not given me any peace as I had hoped. But I feel closer to my decision to leave ... after I take care of some things. For now, I'm going to go sit on the beach for a bit and see if I can feel better today.

- Yada, yada, yada.
 

ace

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I had hoped Christmas would be more depressing than this. I had hoped the loneliness on Christmas would be enough to finally give me the courage to end my life. But so far that hasn’t happened.

Anybody else chickening out on Christmas Day?

I guess the day isn’t over yet.

Oh you're no coward bumper like noone else is who hasn't decided to take that dreaded step of ending it all.Like meander said it's a good thing that you have not gone down that road,I understand you feel like you've chickened out etc for not ending it as you're feeling so low but don't feel like that please.
 

bumper

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Well, the Christmas "spirit" finally caught up with me, and I managed to get out twice today with the intention of killing myself.
But both times I backed down.
Lots of crying, but no death.

Do you know how insulting it is when somone says "Merry Christmas"?
 

ace

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Well, the Christmas "spirit" finally caught up with me, and I managed to get out twice today with the intention of killing myself.
But both times I backed down.
Lots of crying, but no death.

Do you know how insulting it is when somone says "Merry Christmas"?
In one way you could view it as you backed down,but I see it as you succeeded and didn't succumb to the strong desire to go all the way.Yeah i know what it's like when someone say's Merry Christmas but you feel like"What's so Merry about it?"hang tight bumper and try to take it slow.
 

bipolarkitty

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I know what you mean. When I was out today, I saw so many people who looked so happy and I just wanted to yell at them to stop smiling. There's nothing to be happy about today. Of course I didn't do that. I'm not a mean person. But it hurt to see all of them happy while I was so miserable. It just wasn't fair. You're not a coward. I'm glad you had a better day than you expected.
 
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