Well, it's almost official. I'll be alone on Christmas Day. I'm so sad about this. I was alone on Thanksgiving and did everything I could to treat it as a normal day, but the sadness was still there. I might have to do the same for Christmas. The strange thing is how I kind of wanted this. I didn't want to travel and I didn't want to put up with my family, but now that it is my dad saying it's not going to work out, I'm feeling sad. Rejected in a sense. We both looked into airfare, but he thinks it's too expensive. I know that Christmas and Thanksgiving has always consisted of the family spending an hour together for the main event, then watching a movie I hate, and then going our separate ways, but I still feel a sadness. At least it's common for others to be alone on Thanksgiving, but Christmas not so much. I don't know how I'm going to handle the day. It's the fact that everything is closed and everything is a nightmare the days leading up that makes it hard for me.