christmas is sooooooooo hard....

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by incombustible2000, Dec 11, 2007.

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  1. incombustible2000

    incombustible2000 Well-Known Member

    christmas is soo freakin hard. I really hope we can stick together, and try and hold on through this season, I know its hard... just try and hold on together.
     
  2. crackedglass

    crackedglass Well-Known Member

    i dont see the point of christmas anymore its a time where family give you presents as in oh ile buy your love gifts and everything is all made up for. you sit through at least a month of 'christmas cheer' and the stupid 'jolly' songs. While all the time your missing and feeling guilty about someone special who you know you cant have only in death but you feel like you need to make it up to them somehow for ruining their life. You watch everyone pretending to be happy and the people that really are longing you could be one of them and it distances you more from people. you see people getting christmas cards and you getting none. Christmas is aimed at people who have lots of people and those that have none are made to feel even more loney and excluded this time of year sucks and it gets me down even more. christmas is about making money for companies and making those already popular people look more popular and excluding you to show you can never be one of them.
     
  3. PontyCruizer

    PontyCruizer Well-Known Member

    got to agree wi some points there from titch
     
  4. sui caedere

    sui caedere Well-Known Member

    With friends family and work i hope i can get to the new year.

    If i can then i know i have at lest some strength to carry on.
    It be my first christmas with out my cheating wife for 10 years and i know it be bloody hard.

    But one thing gets me so pissed off all my family and friends telling to get a grip and think of others.

    So i am ment to keep living feeling like shit in pain with all the feelings and hurt just to keep them happy.

    sorry just had to ler rip a bit.
     
  5. Insignificant

    Insignificant Account Closed

    i don't handle the holiday to well myself. i'm actually just trying to patiently ride this out. i am literally a poor woman so i can't even afford to do stouf for my kids for christmas. gawd i hate this time of year it leaves me feeling more insignificant than ever.

    take care
     
  6. HomerSimpson

    HomerSimpson Well-Known Member

    So hard also when you have no one. I hear how all my friends are buying gifts for there friends and family, and all the gatherings they will have. I have nothing and no one to be with.
     
  7. wonderer

    wonderer Well-Known Member

    Me neither. I know I'm gonna be spending the holidays alone, but I don't even know where right now.
     
  8. 2cents

    2cents Well-Known Member

    what so bad of passing christmas alone? perhaps i've been spending a long time contended with myself :mellow:
     
  9. RySp123

    RySp123 Guest

    alone or in bad company dont see where the difference is.... seeing faces and movement perhaps?

    no jolly songs, no people to look up to, no warmth, no hugging no gifts no nothing this year, just the like of me popping in the mirror to see a sad smile once in a while if i manage to.

    how lovely having family afar........ hurra (got to cheer myself a little)
    :sad:
     
  10. jamesbond

    jamesbond Well-Known Member

    yeah, it's the worst time for me too. especially when i think about all those happy people who are loved. also my poor sister who is a little angel is fighting an extremely painful illness. we lost our mother and brother to suicide. our father died 10 years ago. to see the sole survivor of my family besides me suffering as she does breaks my already broken heart

    there is no God for some of us.
     
  11. andyc68

    andyc68 Guest

    christmas day will be hard, still here with the ex and got her parents over for lunch, will be good lil boy and be busy in kitchen then go for a walk after.
    boxing day will be better as i have my kids over.

    will be hard but i am going to get thru it.

    fucked if i will give in
     
  12. *domino*

    *domino* Guest

    christmas is just another shitty day, only u cant say ur going out coz theres nowhere to go! every1 ends up arguing what a great day. spending it with the bf and his family this year so im just in the way, xmas is for families whats the point if you dont have 1.
     
  13. pit

    pit Well-Known Member

    Don't know what my best friend is going to do for Xmas. She has a hard time with her father and would rather be alone. She's full of depression and anxiety, she hates her father so much. I wish I didn't have to work the day before Christmas so I could help her with what's going on. Work sucks as usual.
     
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