christmas is sooooooooo hard....

christmas is soo freakin hard. I really hope we can stick together, and try and hold on through this season, I know its hard... just try and hold on together.

 

i dont see the point of christmas anymore its a time where family give you presents as in oh ile buy your love gifts and everything is all made up for. you sit through at least a month of 'christmas cheer' and the stupid 'jolly' songs. While all the time your missing and feeling guilty about someone special who you know you cant have only in death but you feel like you need to make it up to them somehow for ruining their life. You watch everyone pretending to be happy and the people that really are longing you could be one of them and it distances you more from people. you see people getting christmas cards and you getting none. Christmas is aimed at people who have lots of people and those that have none are made to feel even more loney and excluded this time of year sucks and it gets me down even more. christmas is about making money for companies and making those already popular people look more popular and excluding you to show you can never be one of them.

 

got to agree wi some points there from titch

 

With friends family and work i hope i can get to the new year.

If i can then i know i have at lest some strength to carry on.
It be my first christmas with out my cheating wife for 10 years and i know it be bloody hard.

But one thing gets me so pissed off all my family and friends telling to get a grip and think of others.

So i am ment to keep living feeling like shit in pain with all the feelings and hurt just to keep them happy.

sorry just had to ler rip a bit.

 

i don't handle the holiday to well myself. i'm actually just trying to patiently ride this out. i am literally a poor woman so i can't even afford to do stouf for my kids for christmas. gawd i hate this time of year it leaves me feeling more insignificant than ever.

take care

 

So hard also when you have no one. I hear how all my friends are buying gifts for there friends and family, and all the gatherings they will have. I have nothing and no one to be with.

 

Me neither. I know I'm gonna be spending the holidays alone, but I don't even know where right now.

 

what so bad of passing christmas alone? perhaps i've been spending a long time contended with myself :mellow:

 

alone or in bad company dont see where the difference is.... seeing faces and movement perhaps?

no jolly songs, no people to look up to, no warmth, no hugging no gifts no nothing this year, just the like of me popping in the mirror to see a sad smile once in a while if i manage to.

how lovely having family afar........ hurra (got to cheer myself a little)
:sad:

 

yeah, it's the worst time for me too. especially when i think about all those happy people who are loved. also my poor sister who is a little angel is fighting an extremely painful illness. we lost our mother and brother to suicide. our father died 10 years ago. to see the sole survivor of my family besides me suffering as she does breaks my already broken heart

there is no God for some of us.

 

christmas day will be hard, still here with the ex and got her parents over for lunch, will be good lil boy and be busy in kitchen then go for a walk after.
boxing day will be better as i have my kids over.

will be hard but i am going to get thru it.

fucked if i will give in

 

christmas is just another shitty day, only u cant say ur going out coz theres nowhere to go! every1 ends up arguing what a great day. spending it with the bf and his family this year so im just in the way, xmas is for families whats the point if you dont have 1.

 

Don't know what my best friend is going to do for Xmas. She has a hard time with her father and would rather be alone. She's full of depression and anxiety, she hates her father so much. I wish I didn't have to work the day before Christmas so I could help her with what's going on. Work sucks as usual.