..As in, several years or more? Do you ever think that maybe depression isn't the actual problem but really a symptom of whatever the real problem is? I've been in treatment for a long time and I feel like the meds make me just ambivalent enough to keep my exit plan on the shelf for the time being. And the docs, both psychiatrist and psychologist, maintain that what i have is a chronic condition. They tell me that like diabetics will need insulin for their whole lives, I will likely have to be on meds my whole life. But sometimes I wonder if I really have depression or if I haven't learned some skill that I need to achieve the emotional resilience that normal people have. I don't know what that skill could be and I suspect it is something that most pick up instinctively as kids but for whatever reason not everyone learns. It could also be that depressed people are more realistic about the world but that doesn't really help us because what we see more clearly is stuff that we don't have control over anyway. Maybe it's time to try something besides therapy? Or is it time to reconsider the diagnosis?