I feel so sad this morning. I will never live a normal life I'll never experience real love or have a family of my own. Everyone I thought was a friend wasn't. I am the sick girl the boring one the annoying one. No one wants to be my friend. I was in the hospital for a week and only 2 people came to visit. One I work with and my moms friend. I let my supposed best friend know and she didn't even ask to see me. I feel so alone. I have gastroparesis and chronic pain. I've suffered for so long and just don't know how much more i can take. All I do is cry. And feel more withdrawn everyday. Guys hit on me and think I'm "hot" but don't want to be with me in a relationship. It just makes me feel even worse. I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. I wish I was dead so I didn't have to live sick and in pain every waking moment. I am so tired. I just don't know what to do anymore.