Hi I am new and been in chronic pain for 10 years....i have become housebound for the last 3 and despite my best efforts am in bed with my heating pads and ice most of the day as the pain is literally head to toe and ever changing...i cant sleep for the burning throbbing stabbing pain ripping through my whole body and it means my mental health has been colapsing more and more.
Not least my husband lost it with me a few years ago and i am very sensitive person and seemed to blame me for being sick and how it has affected his life and put me through a terrible trauma where i thought he was going to leave me again when i was at my most vulnerable..i understand it does affect him but at that point i was still pretty active and did so much as i had better days and wasnt even depressed ....and he had already cheated on me and dumped me a decade before that....all the emotional hurt i know has exacerbated this disease and maybe even was the trigger to cause it.
I used to be a highly successful career girl brought up a family and was very capable and active.
Now i am a shell of that person and have panic attacks day and night despite medication and am suffering so much as i cant bear the physical pain and feeling such a failure as a person for all i cant do for and with my husband and family....pain at this level means loss of everything that gave my life purpose and joy and me my sense of self.
My laptop is my only link to the world....all my friends have gradually disappeared because i cant join in.
Anyone else on here struggling with Fibromyalgia.ME or CFS or another very painful illness? Sadly mine has progressed to be at the severest end of the spectrum...some people do stay active and even manage towork and i have fought so hard but i literally have pain in every muscle joint tendon including daily migraines and face pain.
Thanks for listening
Not least my husband lost it with me a few years ago and i am very sensitive person and seemed to blame me for being sick and how it has affected his life and put me through a terrible trauma where i thought he was going to leave me again when i was at my most vulnerable..i understand it does affect him but at that point i was still pretty active and did so much as i had better days and wasnt even depressed ....and he had already cheated on me and dumped me a decade before that....all the emotional hurt i know has exacerbated this disease and maybe even was the trigger to cause it.
I used to be a highly successful career girl brought up a family and was very capable and active.
Now i am a shell of that person and have panic attacks day and night despite medication and am suffering so much as i cant bear the physical pain and feeling such a failure as a person for all i cant do for and with my husband and family....pain at this level means loss of everything that gave my life purpose and joy and me my sense of self.
My laptop is my only link to the world....all my friends have gradually disappeared because i cant join in.
Anyone else on here struggling with Fibromyalgia.ME or CFS or another very painful illness? Sadly mine has progressed to be at the severest end of the spectrum...some people do stay active and even manage towork and i have fought so hard but i literally have pain in every muscle joint tendon including daily migraines and face pain.
Thanks for listening