Things fall apart over and over again, and always in the same pattern it seems. Sometimes I've picked myself up and moved on, sometimes I've made incredibly poor decisions in trying to cope with the pain, but I just can't do it anymore. This time I've just gone completely numb, and I'm not sure I want to feel anything ever again. I don't know how other people manage to get through it all, but I'm so tired. I'm just so so tired of hurting, and caring and everything else.