Sorry if this is the wrong category, I wasn't really sure where to put this thread. I am seeking advice for claiming disability. I'm applying, but I feel like I just don't know what I'm doing. I'm scared that I will be rejected, and honestly, it's the only thing that will save me right now. I don't have any family. I don't have any income. I can't get a job and I gave up looking. I will be homeless very soon. I have chronic illnesses, but I don't really have a solid diagnosis. It's a very confusing, long story. Anyway, I've finally snapped. It took a lot for me to get to this place, but now I'm here and I just need a break or I'm going to die. I am very guarded around mental health professionals, so I don't think that even the ones I've seen would realize how bad things are. I admitted to being suicidal, but I refused to talk about it. I haven't seen any therapists long term -- while I was in grad school I saw a couple of interns at the campus mental health clinic. I was too poor to see the regular campus therapist or psychiatrist. Anyway, they were interns and aren't there anymore and I don't know how to contact them. I've also had a few very stressful events in my life since I've last seen them (a friend died, I'm getting evicted, several job rejections, I got denied unemployment because of an arbitrary technicality, I stopped taking my meds cold turkey, probably more that I'm forgetting). My endocrinologist is on leave, and even if he weren't, I don't think he knows how bad things are, either. I almost never see him, again because I'm too poor to have access to medical care. I see him once a year, and often less than that. Will they bother to track these people down? What if my old therapist says I'm okay? I don't know what to do and this is utterly nerve-wracking. I'm worried about all this "evidence" I have to provide. I have trouble convincing doctors that I'm sick, and the ones that admit that I AM sick always tell me that they're sorry but they just don't know what it is. I probably have lupus, but I haven't received an official diagnosis. I definitely have thyroid disease, but that's not enough for disability (I don't think). I am at the point where I just can't work anymore. I just can't. I can't afford doctors and I'm not sure I'd trust any doctor they'd send me to. I've had so many bad experiences with doctors. Any advice is appreciated.