I am sick and tired of girls leaving me because I'm "clingy". Of course I am, everyone I've ever had has left me. It's to be expected now. I have no other sources of comfort, but God fucking forbid I should come to rely on a girl, what a tragedy. Why is it so much more desirable to be ignored and used than to be needed? God damn it. I have nothing, how can I pretend I don't need you? It's not fair. I'm fucking sick of girls telling me how much they care about me and want to be there for me, of them telling me how interested they are in me and how attractive I am, of hearing what a meaningful relationship we're going to have. It's all bullshit. Every single girl I've ever been with has been a shallow **** that was interested in me for my looks and showered me with affection for NOTHING beside the fact that they like how I look and they find the fact that I pushed them away at first to be attractive. It's nothing but a setup to drive the pain in deeper when they dump me for opening up to them. I hate it, I hate them all. I'm tired.