Hey everyone, This is my third time writing this thread, but I am going to write it again anyway. I believe I am clinically depressed and I really need help. I've been depressed all my life but my depression became constant and worse over the past few years. I can’t seem to enjoy anything and my mind always reverts back to being dark and gloomy. I am unable to concentrate in school and I no longer feel confident in myself. I am pessimistic and just feel like a failure. After changing my major in school to something worthless and knowing that I am not guaranteed a job, really scares and depresses me. I disappointed in myself and it is hard knowing that I let my family down after changing my major and not finishing my other major. I feel like I am wasting my time and money in college. I am honestly not a smart person and I feel so emotionally and intellectually stunted. I am just drifting through in school. I miss my younger years in life. Being an adult is hard and I just can’t seem to mature and enjoy life. I am the only person living with my parents after my siblings moved out to be independent and to live on their own. It is hard to reach out to talk to anyone these days. When I try to call and talk to someone they are either busy working or in school. My best friend who is my ex-boyfriend is always busy with work, school and preoccupied with his girlfriend. I feel stagnant and stuck in a gloomy, dark hole. It is so hard to move and make myself fit into society and with others. I wish I was as productive as others, but I am just a waste and I really feel that life is just not for me. I know this post doesn't make sense and I am rambling on, but please can someone answer and help me through this pain.