Clouded

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by NotSureAnymore, Jun 16, 2009.

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  1. NotSureAnymore

    NotSureAnymore Well-Known Member

    Sitting here in my chair looking out the open window
    Wondering why I’m so messed up inside
    I’m happy and high on life one minute
    The next I’m wondering why I’m still alive

    The clouds remind me of my cluttered my mind
    With a million thoughts running around in there
    If one was to open up my head to see what was inside
    There would be a dark labyrinth.. hmm would you dare?

    My eyes look as cloudy and empty as the sky
    My heart beats as slow as the passing clouds
    My emotions feel all mixed up like the weather outside
    My outlook on life is bleak and weird.. I should be proud

    Maybe I should go outside and feel the breeze on my face?
    Maybe I should close this window and shut myself out?
    Maybe I should jump out of this window and brace
    Myself for the fall that can shatter my hateful doubt

    There’s a slight overcast outside… the air kinda smells like rain
    I’m hoping for a monsoon, I don’t want to feel alone when I cry
    The sound of the rain would sooth my mixed emotions
    I feel lost and alone with my own thoughts… and I have no idea why

    Please let it rain so I can feel the wetness on my face
    I’ll run around outside like a crazed fool.. feeling at peace
    I’m hoping for some crazy thunder and lightning
    Those sounds alone would make me feel “normal” and pleased

    Sitting here in my chair looking out the open window
    Watching the clouds go by without a care in world
    Wishing that my mind was as care free as the open sky
    I’m sure there’s a reason why I’m still alive.
     
  2. colt45

    colt45 Well-Known Member

    that was very insightful I was moved.

    i know how you feel.
     
  3. NotSureAnymore

    NotSureAnymore Well-Known Member

    Thanks.. it was just a weird cloudy day that got me feeling weird. My mind was thinking of so many different things.
     
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