Sitting here in my chair looking out the open window Wondering why I’m so messed up inside I’m happy and high on life one minute The next I’m wondering why I’m still alive The clouds remind me of my cluttered my mind With a million thoughts running around in there If one was to open up my head to see what was inside There would be a dark labyrinth.. hmm would you dare? My eyes look as cloudy and empty as the sky My heart beats as slow as the passing clouds My emotions feel all mixed up like the weather outside My outlook on life is bleak and weird.. I should be proud Maybe I should go outside and feel the breeze on my face? Maybe I should close this window and shut myself out? Maybe I should jump out of this window and brace Myself for the fall that can shatter my hateful doubt There’s a slight overcast outside… the air kinda smells like rain I’m hoping for a monsoon, I don’t want to feel alone when I cry The sound of the rain would sooth my mixed emotions I feel lost and alone with my own thoughts… and I have no idea why Please let it rain so I can feel the wetness on my face I’ll run around outside like a crazed fool.. feeling at peace I’m hoping for some crazy thunder and lightning Those sounds alone would make me feel “normal” and pleased Sitting here in my chair looking out the open window Watching the clouds go by without a care in world Wishing that my mind was as care free as the open sky I’m sure there’s a reason why I’m still alive.